Monday, July 30, 2012

Girlfriends, Good Times, and....

So my weekend that I was all excited about has come and gone. It was fun, just as I expected it to be.

Saturday the Hubs and I took the kids some family's house and they played for a while, and then we left and headed about an hour away from our house to Richmond, Texas to go watch a friends daughter play softball. This girl is an awesome ball player.

After the ball game we headed back home and decided to stop and eat. I don't know about anybody else, but deciding where to eat is always a big ordeal. It has pissed me off to the point of me saying "fuck it, everybody can find their own food at the house" and not stopping anywhere. Well, we decided to go to Hooters. I love Hooters, and the kids have never been and they have been wanting to go, so why not? Well, Dawson, being almost 13 was beyond excited when we walked in. I wish I would have pulled my phone and took a picture of him because it was quite funny, the shit eatin' grin he had on his face. I just busted out laughing.

Sunday was the day that I was most excited for. I was going to see some old friends from school and I could not wait. I told the Hubs that I would take Keigan with me and he insisted that he keep both kids and take them to do something fun and let me go hangout with my girlfriends. Yay! He is such a great man. They (Bob and the kids) took off and went to IKEA, and then Dave & Busters, which the kids have never been there either. I took off and went to my friends parents house. It was just like the old days, we sat around and talked, and laughed and ate some really good food that Becky's mom made for us. A couple of us stayed and talked and laughed until 12:30 in the morning. Now I can't wait for Becky to get to Japan and start writing and posting pictures. I am so excited for her.

I got home from my gathering about 12:45 or so and then I laid in the bed watching television until about 2:30 or so and had to get back up at 5:30 to get Dawson up so he could get ready to go to the Houston Texans Training Camp-Youth Day. He left about 10 minutes after 6 and fell back to sleep and then went and colored my hair, and highlighted a friends hair. Now I am home.

Apparently sometime over the weekend I missed some big ordeal with Chick-fil-A and so I asked what the heck the deal was, on FaceBook. Maybe that was a mistake. lol. So far I have managed to keep a war from starting among the people commenting. For those of you who may not know, I guess the CEO of Chick-fil-A said that he supports traditional marriage and of course the set the gay and lesbian communities in an uproar. I have not asked my best friend (Google) yet what exactly was said, but it seems that a lot of people have very different opinions as to what was said, and what, if any, rights, gay and lesbians should have.

My thoughts on the matter...everybody is entitled to their own opinion, and I personally think that they should have the same rights as "traditional" people. Times have changed. Religion has been pulled out of just about everything that is public, so why the hell should anybody care what someones sexual preference is? I have several gay and lesbian friends. They are no different than me. They either work, or stay home and take care of the house, some of them even have kids, so they take care of their kids. They pay their bills, they bleed the same color that I do, and the love most of them share is a love like you have never seen.
I could go on, and I probably will in a later blog, but right now I have an 8 year old who is being very needy, and for some reason, everybody always wants to eat dinner in the house, so I need to cook.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Just another sleepless night in the hood....

The Hubs is at work, doing one of those LONG, he went to work this morning and doesn't plan on getting off of work until Saturday sometime. I hope they finish the ship early. I hate when he works like that.

I am actually looking forward to this weekend! We are going to a BBQ at my aunts house. Or my father in laws house....however you want to look at it. lol Yes, I know it sounds pretty backwoods Arkansas, hillbilly, but it's really not. lol

Anyway, we are going over there for a BBQ for a family day with some family we have not seen in a couple of years. The kids are excited too.

If timing allows, we will also go watch a friends little girl play softball. This girl is awesome and we enjoy watching kids play sports.

But....Sunday...I can not wait until Sunday! Sunday I will get to see some old girlfriends from high school. One of them is about to embark on a new journey in life and will be moving to Japan. While I personally could never up and move to Japan, I know that she is going to love it! This is someone that I truly look up to and that inspires me. SHE is the reason that I have wanted to do photography, and though I have not seen her in forever and a day, it will still be sad to see her go, yet so exhilarating at the same time. Knowing she is getting to have the experience of a lifetime. I think she may get a little bored being a stay home wife, but I expect that she will definitely find ways to pass the time, and I expect to see lots of pictures and I will definitely be following her blog!! I would post the link, but I don't know how she would feel about that....

Thursday, July 26, 2012

And this is OUR future....

Yup Im Done...
Fukk The Bull'Shyt Niqqas Branq.
Wanna' Sit There Nd' Tell Yew All Kinda' Shyt But Then Go Bakk On They Word, Damn Nd' To Think I Was Still Waitinq Fo' Yew.
Told Me.He.Was Gonna' Be Here But Then I Was Preqnant Nd' He Cudn.t Do It Cause It Not His But Yet He Knew From The.Beqinninq It Was A Possibklity And He Told Me He Wud Be Here For Me.
Ha Hope She Breaks Your.Fukkinq Heart. #Real'Fukkinq'Talk.!
Worried Bout' Me Nd' My Baby Only Shyt Fukk Eryyh'One Else. Straiqht Up.

Yep, the above statement is a status of a 17 year old child (who is sorta like a niece to me) and I can not help but be a little disturbed by every single thing in this status. Ugh. What the hell is wrong with kids today. I promise you, if either one of my kids EVERY try to post some stupid shit like this, or talk like something they are NOT, it WILL be the last they see of FaceBook as long as they live with me, and they will NOT be talking for a while because they would likely need some dental work, do you hear me? 

I totally blame the parents for the way this girl acts. This child quit going to school in JR HIGH and has been a wild child for a long time. She did good while she lived with her dad and stepmom for a while, but then she started hanging with the wrong crowd and ended up moving to her moms because there were no rules. She was not made to get up and go to school. She was not punished in anyway for any of her actions. Nothing. She has been allowed to sleep with MEN since she moved with her mother. She is pregnant by a 24 year old man and apparently her mom sees nothing wrong with it!?!?! 

Monday, July 23, 2012

What the hell is wrong with people?

I have a few rants today. Some have been headline news, some maybe just local news here in my area, and some, so far have not even made the news, and one, I know for a fact, won't be on the news. Let me start with that one.

Just a little while ago I had to go to my step dads house to get a crock pot. It is about a 15 minute drive, maybe a little longer, depending on the traffic, or if you are like me and have an addiction to fountain Dr. Pepper from McDonald's. I stop at the McDonald's that is along the way and I wait 15 minutes in the drive thru to just to order my drink, and one for Keigan too, just to get the damn drinks and drive off and then take a drink to find out it was DIET COKE! Puke! I called the idiots at McDonald's something along the lines of stupid fucktards and went on about my business...without my "crack" ( fountain DP) and when I make it to the turn off on the highway, I was stopped because they are putting new black top down on the road. While I am sitting there waiting for the dumb girls to give me the OK to drive through, one of the two women starts cleaning out their ice chest and throwing all the empty coke cans, water bottles and 2 beer cans on the ground! I rolled the window down and said something to her, and then it took everything in my being not to take that nasty ass diet coke out of the cup holder and throw it all over that dumb bitch. Ugh. When I get to the other end of the construction zone, I stop and nicely say something to what appeared to be the supervisor and his response pissed me off even more (but I still didn't throw the damn coke and I wish I would have. That would have been so funny because he was sitting on his ass with a laptop between him and the steering wheel in the AC. I could have just thrown it in his window and drove off.  His response was "And?...Are you with the EPA or something? If not don't worry about it!" There were no phone numbers on the trucks or equipment for me to call, but I am going to look up the company and call and let them know.
Done...I actually just called them and gave them my complaint and they immediately transferred me the CEO of N-Line Traffic Maintenance. He was just as pissed as I was. Hope they all get fired.

On to the next...This whole shooting thing in Colorado. What in the hell would make some dude with clown red (faded) hair, that has a PhD go into a movie theater and start shooting people? I can not fathom this at all. I can not thing of any one thing or combination of things that would get me that worked up, that I would want to take the time and set my apartment up with all these bombs and shit, and then spend all the money on protective gear, guns, ammo, and so on, and then kill all these innocent people. Then to top it all off, this motherfucker doesn't even try to kill himself, or put up a fight with the police! Of course already there is talking about this guy having mental problems. I call BULLSHIT! This piece of shit had this shit planned out. Yeah, I guess he did have some mental disorder, but not to the capacity the media is trying to make it out to be. He knew damn good and well what the fuck he was doing. He knew it the whole time he was planning it out. He knew it the whole time that he was rigging his apartment with all kinds of bombs and shit. He also knew it as he was headed to the theater that night. Does he think he is going to continue to live a long healthy life in prison, or that he will get out on temporary insanity or some shit?
How does someone like this even deserve to be able to see the light of day (the shooting happened at a midnight showing, it was dark outside)? I can honestly say that if I had been the cop taking this bastard to jail, we would have made a pit stop and he would be dead! However, I wasn't that cop, and this man is still alive and well. Unharmed, and eating 3 meals a day. Why? Why is he on suicide watch? If the fucker wanted to kill himself, he would have done it before going to jail. Why is he going to be appointed an attorney that is suppose to HELP him fight his case? How can any attorney defend this monster? Why is this man going to even have a chance to live for years in a prison system that the tax payers are going to have to continue paying for? Ugh. I could keep going about this, but I won't.


This WAS an extended cab F250 super duty.

The following is the news report from abc13 KTRK Eyewitness News Houston.

South Texas officials are investigating a horrific single vehicle accident that killed 14 people and left 9 injured.
The truck those 23 victims were traveling in was impounded to the Goliad Sheriff's Department, where authorities continue to search the vehicle for evidence.
A total of 14 people are confirmed dead and 9 are recovering at four different hospitals in Victoria, Corpus Christi, Beeville and San Antonio.
According to DPS, the accident happened around 6:30pm Sunday off Highway 59, near Goliad. DPS troopers tell us 23 people were traveling in a Ford F250 pickup truck when the driver lost control and smashed into several trees.
At least seven passengers were traveling inside the truck. The others were believed to be in the bed of the truck. Troopers tell us the truck bed was not covered and those victims were ejected.
"In my 38 years as an officer this is one of the worst fatalities I have been to and I have never seen where we had that many in a vehicle," said DPS Trooper Gerald Bryant.
According to US Immigrations and Customs Enforcement, 11 of the dead were male and three were female. Two of those killed were juveniles. ICE added that the deceased are from Guatemala, Honduras and Mexico.
We have also confirmed the driver of the truck was killed and authorities say they have not been able to identify him or any of the other passengers. They say the truck is registered out of Houston, but the owner was not the driver.
At this point, authorities have enough evidence to believe the 23 victims were illegally traveling from Mexico.
"One thing was the manner in which they were being carried in the vehicle," said Trooper Bryant. "It's very common with the way illegal immigrants are transported into the United States and another thing is the lack of identification on the victims involved in this crash."
Border patrol agents are now questioning the survivors of this crash at the different hospitals, trying to learn where they were from and where they were headed. They are continuing to work on identifying all of the victims and notifying their families.
Authorities say it appears the right front tire blew out, causing the truck to veer off the road and strike two trees."
23 people in one fucking truck and nobody had stopped them before they made thus far? I mean, I don't know exactly how far into Texas they actually were, but I do know they were far enough to have gone through more than 1 fucking check point! How do you fit that many people in a damn truck? Fucking idiots!!!

My next issue, I have yet to see on any news, in any news papers, or any police reports.
My brother in law is a manager at a Radio Shack and they were robbed at gun point Saturday night. I think I may have already posted something about this, but still, it really pisses me off.
From my understanding it was my brother in law and one other employee working and there were 2 customers in the store. A back man comes into the store and pulls a gun and takes all the money in the store, and apparently all the money that the people had. He took all of their cell phones and then made them go to the back of the store where my brother in law was made to unlock a cabinet that holds all the iPhones and whatever else, and then everybody was locked in a bathroom. I am so thankful that nobody was hurt, but I think I am really more pissed off at the fact that the security cameras in the store do not really record, so there is no video of the suspect. Why would you not have the cameras recording? That is ignorant. This store has been broken into before....Nothing worth anything was stolen, but you would think that after that, they would want to make sure the shit is recording. I do not know if anything has been done or if they have found this man or not. I was told that one of the customers phones that the man took had a GPS locator on it, and the phone was supposedly located, but I have no clue really. I have not talked to my brother in law personally. I do know for a fact....That would have been my last night to work for Radio Shack!!!

There ya have rants for the day.

Why can't I get back into a normal sleeping habit?

Here it is, 1 o'clock in the morning, again, and I still up. I am not sure what time I went to bed last night, but I know it was late because we went to a wedding. I want to say it was somewhere around 3ish. I woke up at 6, fell back to sleep, and then woke up at I don't know what time, and then kept falling asleep off and on the rest of the day. Ugh.

We did get some disturbing news today....My brother in law works at Radio Shack and he was robbed at gunpoint yesterday! He is the manager, and it was him and another employee and 2 customers. A black male came into the store and pulled a gun out, and according to what the Hubs told me, my BIL immediately started handing over all the cash. The robber took all 4 of their cell phones, made my BIL unlock all the iPhones in the store, and then the robber locked them all in a bathroom. To my knowledge this guy has not been caught, and there is NO security camera footage because although they have cameras, they do not record. Why the hell not, I have NO clue. I was also told that one of the customers had a GPS on her phone and they were able to locate the phone to a house, but I have no idea what ever came out of it. We have not seen anything on the news about this either, which I also find a little disturbing.

Anyway, I guess that is about all for now. I am going to clean my kitchen and I guess watch tv until I pass out.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

The assholes parking arrangement

The black truck is parked in front of my house and then taking up part of their driveway. The white car is also in their drive way. I informed the office of my issues today and I let them know if they did not handle it, I was going to put up no parking signs on my house as well stating that anybody parking there without permission would have their car towed away at the owners expense!

Friday, July 20, 2012


I want so badly to just go outside and cuss my neighbor out! I will refrain seeing as they appear to be a little on the thugish side, I am home alone, and I really don't feel like having anything happen to me, my car, or this hell hole we call home for the time being! I don't know what the hell they do, but anytime they are outside they are right up against my house (trailer) beating and banging as if they have all the sense in the fucking world! It is 11:40 at night and They are being very loud. I have music playing on the computer and I can still hear the spanish music blaring, on top of them beating and banging, yelling and carrying on.
The beating and banging is a daily/nightly thing. Every single time they come home, I swear they hit the end of my house with their car. One of these days I will go outside and take a picture and post of it, of how they park, and how they are suppose to park.
At the risk of pissing people off, and it is not my intentions, and sounding raciest, which I am NOT, we live in a "neighborhood" that is 85% mexican and these people all seem to be assholes! I have tried talking to them. Ya know, being the friendly neighbor. Negative. They wanted NO part of talking to me. My daughter has tried on more than one occasion, to play with the little kids around here. Negative. They just make fun of her and look at her like she is crazy. What the fuck is wrong with these people?
Anyway, this is my rant.

I have 10 people!

WHAT?!?!?! I got off of here sometime in the hours this morning and I had 4 followers. When I woke up I had 8 and NOW...I have 10!!!!
That is simply AMAZING to me. Thanks guys!!! I promise I will try not to bore you too much with my random, sometimes long blogs of nothings!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Reality TV

I will admit, I am a reality tv junkie. I would rather watch this, than just about anything else on tv. Don't get me wrong, it is not all I watch. I watch Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice and Army Wives. The rest of the time, if I am watching tv, it is some sort of reality show. Teen Mom, or 16 and Pregnant. Why those shows I have NO clue. I am 34 and have 2 kids already and don't plan on having anymore.
I also watch all of the LockUp shows, and I have watched enough First 48 to kill an army and not get caught. (that is a joke) I would not really kill anybody.
I don't watch the Bachelor or Bachelorett anymore though. Those shows just really piss me off. Why? Because you never see any of the women on there that don't really look like models. It's like they only look for the skinny model types. Not that I am complaining because I would want to go on the show. I am happily married to a man that is greater than I could ever even dream of. It just sends a message to me that ABC (which is owned by Disney which in itself gives girls a false idea of what love and life are all about) doesn't think that women who are a little over weight, or may not be a bombshell, deserve to find love, in whatever means they can. Make any sense? I hope so.

My favorite show is Big Brother! Oh how I would LOVE to go on this show. I would not even go with the hopes of winning, because I know my mouth would get me kicked out long before the end of the show. lol. I have no filter for the most part. I like it that way, because I like to be just as surprised as everybody else by what comes out of my mouth. Not to mention, my mouth goes faster than my brain.
Now, this year on Survivor there was that guy Russell Hantz and his brother Willie is on BB?!? I think it is some sort of conspiracy from CBS, but who the hell am I say? These two clowns are from a small town (that I just moved from) called Dayton, Texas. NOTHING exciting happens in this town, and 3 people from this hell hole have been on reality shows. There was a lady who I actually know/meet through Boy Scouts was on Wife Swap.
How do they go about picking these people?

Just sitting and thinking

I don't even really know where or how to start this post, so forgive me if it seems a bit sporadic. Once upon a time I never really had an issue with trying to put my thoughts into words, but that was eons ago. Ya know, when MySpace was cool. Yeah...but the FaceBook came along and there wasn't a "blog" option on there so I quit writing and I have just recently started blogging again on at least a semi regular basis, so sometimes it is difficult for me. Sorry. I really think it is my adult ADD that is taking over me and keeping me from writing like a sane person, so with that, you will just have to deal with my randomness and skipping all over the place blog postings, okay? Good.

I decided to get back into the whole blogging thing again as a way to pass the time. I enjoy reading, and there are so many different blogs out there, I get bored with FaceBook, so I figured why not. Some of the blogs that I read are serious, some funny, some sad, and some just fucking crazy. Being the nosy person that I am, when I find a blog that looks like it may interest me, I will follow it and then go back and read every single post. I want to try to learn as much as I can about who ever is posting. Some the posts don't take a whole lot of reading to figure out that the author is seriously depressed or may seem to have some other serious issues going on.
Being that I have suffered from bouts of depression, I can sympathize with some of these people, mostly women of course. I find myself wondering if their spouse or partner even know about the blog, and not that even really matters, but I do know first hand what it is like to be in a very unhappy, sometimes volatile marriage, and I know that NOTHING will ever get better if BOTH people involved do not know exactly how the other is feeling. Then I think, well, maybe it isn't really as bad as they are making it out to be, but who am I to decided? All I know is that I enjoy reading all the blogs, and if I can relate to them, or whatever, I will post a comment. Sometimes that helps...knowing that other people are reading and know exactly what you are talking about. With that being said, I know this may only reach 4 people in the blog world, because I only have 4 followers, so I don't really imagine that anything I post will really be that touching or anything else, but I hope my 4 people enjoy it as much as I enjoy reading others. Does any of this make sense thus far?

Speaking of in the hell are people getting hundreds of followers?!?! I mean, some even have THOUSANDS! I am by NO means trying to be famous with my silly blog, but how cool would that be? HAHA. I wonder if they feel like they have to post something every single day, or every other day, or people will stop reading? I personally can imagine really having anything interesting enough to write about that often. Hell, I can imagine anybody (my 4 people) finding anything I have already posted, interesting...but THANK YOU!

I guess my real reasoning for this post is to give anybody that reads this and wants to know, and insight to who I am. Mostly because I wonder the very same thing about the people who write the blogs that I read.

I am Tara. I was born in Houston, and grew up in a "rich kid" town, although we were far from rich. Money wise anyway. I lived with my mom and my grandfather, sometimes one of my uncles would live with us, but it was usually just the 3 of us. My dad was in TDC (Texas Department of Corrections) prison. I remember the summer between 2nd and 3rd grade. He was out of prison and we did some things together as a family, but whatever it was, it almost always turned into a physical fight between him and my mom. I remember he took me to school on my first day of 3rd grade and all the kids thought he was a movie star because he was covered in tattoos. Oh the little things that make us look back and laugh now. That Christmas is the only holiday that I can remember spending with him as a child, and then shortly after that he ended up going to prison in Louisiana. He was locked up there until I was about 18 I guess. I forget now. After he got out of prison we did not spend all that much time together. Not like you would think. Instead he was too busy drinking and getting high and that was not my style. He was at my 20th birthday party that my mom gave me, and then I only seen him a couple of times after that. While I was pregnant with my first child, he wanted to paint a mural on the nursery wall, so I said okay. After he finished that, I my son was born in October, and I think my did seen him 1 time before Christmas, and then again on Christmas when I went to go see my Ol' Granny and me and his girlfriend got in a fight. I do not remember seeing him again, or him seeing his grandson again. He passed away at the age of 40 from a massive heart attack, and in his girlfriends words when I asked was he fucked up "he has just lit a joint and opened his first beer of the day."
I got married a month after my son was born. I did not have a wedding. I married a man who's mother hated my guts and said it would never last. Well, 11 years and a second child later, she was right. Neither one of us really wanted to get married I don't think. It just seemed like it was the right thing to do. We had talked about getting married before I ever got pregnant, but then I got pregnant and things changed. We gave it a go, and I did my best, and looking back now, I guess he did his best, it just wasn't enough. We had NOTHING in common, other than 2 beautiful kids.

In 2006 my mom was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. She had surgery, and then after that healed up, she went through chemo and radiation 5 or 6 days a week for I don't remember exactly how long. Like 6 months. So now dealing with my mom being sick, having a friend and her 3 kids live with me and husband and our 2 kids, I was going through hell. The fighting became more and more frequent even though it was not physical, it was still too much. I ended up ending the friendship with the friend living with us, and she moved out. I got the courage to leave the husband I could not deal with anymore. He worked out of town all the time and so I was going to move on June 2nd. He was to be leaving to go back to San Antonio. It was all planned out. Then that morning came. He left for San Antonio, and I woke up to a phone call that my mom was being taken to the hospital by ambulance. This pissed me off on so many different levels, and I could not understand why I was getting a phone call as they were trying to load my mom up on the stretcher when I lived next door, but either way, I ran over there and found out that mom had been in excruciating pain all night. Screamed all night from the pain, but would not let my stepdad take her to the hospital or call for help. That day was the day my life was suppose to start getting better, but ended up getting worse. My mom was brought home on 24 hour crisis care hospice. This was Monday the 2nd of June, and she passed away Friday, the 6th. Let me also say, my grandfather that I grew up with had passed away in 1992, and I was the one that found him. My Ol'Granny (dads mom) had just passed away on St. Patricks day. Just a couple of months before my mom.
Needless to say, my plans for packing up and moving were put on hold. It took me a year to get the courage back up to leave, only this time it was not as copacetic as originally planned. It was a huge blow up, and he ended up going to jail. I wish things had gone differently in the sense that he would not have choked me and I would not have had him arrested, but I am glad that it is all over with, and I was able to talk the state into not prosecuting him.

In September of 2009 I met a man became close friends with him. We started dating, and I would not let him meet my kids. My divorce was final October 15th of that year. After that we made it known that we were in a relationship, and shortly after, he meet my kids, and on March 17th of this year we were married. I can say now that I know what true love and happiness feels like. I know that this man loves me and these kids with all of his being. It has not been all roses, and there have been some pretty serious issues, but we have made it through and are standing strong.

I guess that is enough about me for now............enjoy. If you want, feel free to share this page, and have others follow. 

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


Here it is, 3am and I am still wide awake. Just got out of the shower actually. The Hubs is at work, one child in bed and the other with their dad and here I sit. Ugh. I could scream at the top of my lungs, but then what would that do? It damn sure isn't going to make me sleepy.
School is starting in about a month so I need to get back into a school night sleeping habit, and I need to do it soon. I need to start getting the kids back into the school routine too. That will be fun.
Speaking of school...I need to start school shopping. I think I will start buying school supplies with then next couple of weeks, and then clothes will soon follow. Thankfully the kids do not have a uniform dress code this year, so it will be easier to shop for them. Everybody and their brother will not be looking for the same solid color shirts.
The uniform doesn't bother me, but if they are not going to let the kids where "normal" clothes then they need to make them wear true uniforms. Every child should have to wear the exact same pants/shorts/skirts, shirts, socks and shoes.
Anyway, I guess I will get off of here and try to go lay down and go to sleep....

So ya wanna know?

Name?  Tara

Birthplace? Houston, Texas

Current Location? Not too far from my birthplace
Hometown? Where I grew up and went to school? Deer Park, Texas
Race? White, if it really matters
Eye Color? Blue
Hair Color? Multi colored
Height? 5'9"
Glasses or contacts? neither
Piercings or tattoos? I have had my tongue pierced 4 times, my nose once, my eyebrow, and I have about 8 tattoos
Single or taken:? Happily Married
Siblings names (if any)? Brandi & Heather
Right Handed or Left Handed? Right
Any pets? 2 worthless little dogs, that are actually my kids dogs, but I will be getting me a dog for Christmas
Your greatest strength? My husband and kids
Your Weakness? My husband and kids
Your parents names? Merry (Stormy) and Jerry
Favorite color? Pink
Favorite flower? Daisy
Favorite college basketball team? I do not like ANY basketball team.
5 favorite movies and one you wouldn't want anyone to find out about? I have nothing to hide so I couldn't care less if anybody knew what movies I have. Some of my favorites are TOP GUN, MARY POPPINS, THE GNOME MOBILE, 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU, 50 FIRST DATES
Favorite holiday? Halloween
Favorite physical feature on yourself? Ugh, at the moment, nothing. lol. If I have to pick legs?
Your favorite pizza toppings? BBQ from CiCI's Pizza
Favorite alcoholic drink of choice? Malibu Rum and Orange-Pineapple juice
Favorite guilty pleasure? Coloring my hair and getting my nails done
Your favorite lunch meat? Black Forest Ham or Roast Beef
Favorite non-sexual thing to do with a girl/guy? I am in my mid 30's, so I guess just hang out and visit.
Favorite place to eat a romantic dinner? Hell if I know. Never been on a romantic date or had a romantic dinner.
Favorite season? Fall

Favorite cartoon character? Plucky Duck or Pepe' LaPue (spelling)
Your favorite food? Hamburgers, or a good ol pot of beans and fried taters
Favorite Ice cream flavor? Not a big fan of ice cream these days.
Favorite subject(s) in school? English
Favorite candy? Tootsie Rolls
Favorite breakfast cereal? Cinnamon Toast Crunch or Cookie Crisps
Favorite person in your life? My husband and kids. Can't pick just one
Favorite book of all time? Where the Sidewalk Ends
Favorite song? I have way too many to narrow it down.
You favorite park? Really? I don't really have one.
Favorite place to be? Anywhere as long as I can be surrounded by friends and family
Your favorite sport to watch on TV? Football
Favorite TV show (Still running or ended)? Grey's Anatomy
Your Favorite number? 87
Your favorite letter(s) of the alphabet? F...because my favorite words starts with F
Favorite fast food restaurant? Sonic
Who is your favorite Disney Princess? I don't have one.
What would you consider your favorite T.V. station? ABC
Favorite names for a son? Dawson Lyric
What about favorite names for a daughter? Keigan Leigh
What is your favorite part of your life right now? Just the fact that I am in a healthy marriage and my kids are happy and well taken care of.
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
Alcoholic or non? Non usually
Long relationships or one night stand? Long.
Scary movies or comedies? Comedies
Short or long hair? My hair is the longest it has been since I was in Jr. High, and I HATE IT! I want to chop it off. I prefer short hair.
Croutons or bacon bits? A little of both sometimes
Beach or lake? I LOVE the water, so either is fine with me.
Cowboys or Indians? Cowboys
Cops or Robbers? Cops
Single or Group Dates? Both
McDonalds or Burger King? McDonalds
Pepsi or Coke: Coke, but only if it is ice cold in a can and then I have to pour it in a cup without letting it foam up and then gently put ice in it without it foaming up. If it foams up I pour it out and start all over. It's my OCD.
Starbucks or elsewhere? Starbucks, but very seldom
Dogs or cats? Dogs...the bigger the better
Jay Leno or David Letterman? Neither. They both get on my nerves.
Do you smoke? Sadly, Yes, but I hope to be quit by the end of the year.
Do you sing? Yes
Do you want to get married? I was married or 11 years, and thought I never wanted to be married again, but when I found someone I was truly happy with, I couldn't wait to be married again, so after almost 3 years of being together, we were married on St. Patrick's day this year, and I could not be happier.
Do you believe in yourself? Sometimes, with some things.
Do you get along with your parents? Both of my parents have passed away
Do you go to church? No, but I do believe in God and I pray all the time.
Do you want children? I have 2
Do you drink? Very seldom
Do you like to travel by plane? Been on a plane once and went from Houston to San Antonio and it took about 30 minutes vs 3 hours. It wasn't too bad, but I love a good road trip
Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday morning? NO. I hate cartoons
Do you have a teddy bear? I do
Do you like thunderstorms? I don't
Do you play an instrument? I did (trumpet)
Do you think Jesus is great? Without a doubt
Do you have any friends of the gay preference? I do
Do you consider yourself a party person or more apt to stay at home? I love the party life, but I find that I stay home 99% of the time
Have you ever fired a gun? I have
Have you ever loved someone? I have, and I do
Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? I'm sure
Have youe ever been with someone of the same sex? Negative
Have you ever been so drunk you don't remember the entire night? Yes
Have you ever cried for no reason? I have, and I have cried EVERY SINGLE DAY since June 6, 2008, when my mom passed away
Have you ever cut your own hair? I have been a licensed hair stylist for 12 years...I'm going to say yes
Have you ever skipped school? Yes
Have you ever bungee jumped? Yes
Have you ever punched someone? Yes
Have you ever been arrested? Yes
Have you ever broken into someone's house? No
Have you ever participated in a crime without getting caught? Not that I am aware of
List your top fears: Something happening to one of my kids, or something happening to me and leaving my kids behind
What bill do you hate paying the most? ALL OF THEM
What did you want to be when you were growing up? A hair stylist and a paramedic. I only made it to the EMT-Intermediate level.
How many colleges did you attend? 2
What errand/chore do you despise? Grocery shopping.
A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing? I don't have any secrets
How many joints pop when you get out of bed in the morning? Hell if I know. I can  tell you its not my neck or back. I have not been able to pop either in almost 8 years
What is the biggest amount of money you have made from a yard sale? I have never had a yard sale
What do you get every time you go into a Wal-Mart? Too much of a bunch of shit I usually don't really need.
What are your views on marriage? I think everbody (even gays) should have the same rights to be married.
What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best? Hollywood? Growing up I was always told I looked like Candice Cameron, and then when I was older and wore my hair really short and bleached, I was told I looked like Natalie Maines from the Dixie Chicks
Who from high school would you like to run into? There is no telling
Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? None. I live my life without regrets
If you could get away with it, who would you kill? Nobody
What famous person dead or alive would you like to have dinner with? Mick Foley
How do you want to die? I don't! I want to be a vampire and live forever
What do you want to achieve in life? I just want to be happy, and see to it that my kids have a good life and are successful and go to college.
How many jobs have you had? I don't know.
At this point in life, would you rather start a new career or relationship? Career
Number of drugs you have taken? 2
Your most missed memory? My mom and my grandfather. Yes, I miss my dad, but he was never around when I was growing up. He spent my childhood in prisons
What are your first thoughts upon waking up? Are my kids ok
What goal would you like to achieve this year? I want to go back to school, and still start my photography business
Who would you like to see right now? my mom
Are you still friends with your ex's? I am. We have kids together
What books are you reading (if any)? None at the moment
What are your regrets? I don't have any. We can not change the past, so there is no sense in regretting it. At the moment, it is what you wanted to do, is what it is.
What song best describes your love life? No Clue
Who do you stalk on MySpace? Who gets on MySpace anymore?
Do you cheer for the bad guy? uhh, not usually.
What do you want when you are sick? my mom
What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now? 92.9 (country)
Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? A parking lot I guess
What country would you most like to visit? There are a few
How many pillows do you sleep with? I have 2, but when I go to sleep I only use a very small corner of 1
What is the best way you document your life? I write/blog
Love and Romance...can be over rated at times, and I think Disney gives girls a false point of view
Music...couldn't live without it
School...I miss it
Politics...a bunch of bullshit, and a good way to piss people off
The a life sucking device that can build and break relationships

Monday, July 16, 2012


So for like the last couple of months I seem to have been having a serious case of insomnia. I hate it! The sun is usually coming up before I am able to get any sleep, and then of course, there is too much shit that needs to be done, which I guess I could have been doing while I was unable to sleep during the night, but I didn't. The whole time we were on vacation it was the same way. I was still awake when the sun was coming up and then I would be getting right back up to go have fun...the cycle seems never ending.
Last night was probably the first night I was asleep before 5am in a very long time. I think it was maybe about 2:30 when I fell asleep, and I slept until after 8:30! I slept good too, or so I thought. I have been sleeping off and on all day long. Now I probably will not be able to sleep tonight. Go figure.
I guess tonight if I am unable to sleep I will do some cleaning. Wash some dishes and clean out melted Popsicles and ice cream out of the freezer. Ugh. because I am an idiot sometimes, I forgot to mail off the light bill and so when we got home at 2:30 Sunday morning we had NO power. I called the automatic payment number, made the payment by phone and then we left and went to some family members house. I was pissed, but I could not pissed at anybody but myself. Although it was a simple mistake, it was still my fault and it ended up costing more than just the light bill. I am guessing that the power was shut off Wednesday (the same day we left) because everything in the fridge was hot, therefore it was all a loss. I did not think to check the deep freezer, but I am sure that was all a loss too. When we got back to the house Sunday afternoon the power was on, and had apparently been on for a while because everything in the freezers was already frozen again.

Anyway, on a different note, I did not take very many pictures while we were on vacation. I am so mad at myself, but at the same time, we were busy playing in the water and I did not want to leave my big camera in the hot car all day while swimming and floating. I should have taken some time though and gone and taken some pictures. I seen all kinds of cool things that I wanted to take pictures of and didn't.

               My Babies... Keigan and Dawson

                         RaeRae & CaiCai

 I took the waterproof camera with me on the first trip down the river, but then I did not charge the battery and take it any more. I am still kicking myself in the ass over that. There were times I wished that I could get out of the river and go grab my big camera and take pictures of different things along the river, but of course there was NO way to do that. I would have loved to have taken some good pictures of Dawson jumping off of a 30 foot cliff...even though it scared the living hell out of me watching him it do it. It was a great memory for him, and I did not get to capture it. Next year, I will take the waterproof camera with me everywhere I go, and I WILL take the time to go take pictures of other things as well.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Floating the Frio 2012

Wednesday, July 11, 2012- we got on the road about 9:45am, headed towards Utopia, Texas. It pretty much poured down rain the whole trip until we actually came into Utopia and the rain stopped long enough for us to find the office to the Rio Frio Lodging, get checked in, drive to our cabin and then to the little store to get gas and then back to our cabin. Once we got back to the cabin the bottom fell out again. It didn't last long but we were td at the store that the weather wasn't looking too promising for our planned river float. The cabin we are staying in is called Canyon Breeze and it is located at The Steppin' Back Guest Ranch, ran by Rio Frio Lodging. The movie "7 Days in Utopia" was filmed here and Melissa Leo lived in this cabin while they were here. There is a journal on the end table in the cabin that guest write their stories in and leave them behind for others to read. It is pretty neat. I haven't put anything in the journal yet, but I plan to before we leave.

Thursday July 12, 2012- thankfully we got up this morning and the skies were clear and the weather was perfect. It wasn't hot and there was just enough of a breeze. We loaded up and headed to the store and got a shuttle to a drop off point that the locals call the 1120. They told us that the river was at a perfect level for a good float and it was the best it had been in at least 5 years. Not long into our journey Cindy, Rae and Keigan ( who all had their tubes tied together) got horse shoed around a tree. Ronnie rescued them and in the process of trying to wait for them, I grabbed a tree limb and tried to stop but the limb slipped out of my hand and almost smacked Dawson in the face. Thank God he moved because it probably would have knocked his ass out cold!
Now, I know this sounds silly, but I am scared of the rapids on the rivers. If the sound bad or look bad, I will get out and walk around it or check it out first. The first set we came to, I knew there was a drop off and I was not about to go over it, and neither was Keigan. Dawson is bigger and enjoys that stuff so I let him make up his own mind. He is pretty good at maneuvering his tube and keeping it under control and he doesn't panic. I just can't say the same thing. Lol. Everybody went through it except for Keigan and I. I think Bob and Caitlynn were the only ones who got flipped out of their tubes, and bob ended up losing his hat from Dawson's all stars, lost his goggles and at some point HIS WEDDING RING!
The next set of rapids we were all floating through and Keigan got freaked out and Rae got a little freaked out because they could see what looked like a little drop or something and so I'm trying to hold on to both of them, get all 3 of us to the side and keep from losing my tube. NONE of that took place though. I ended up flipping out of my tube while still trying to hold both of them and of course now I'm being drug down and getting the shit beat out of me the whole way! I lost sight of both girls and I instantly freaked and started bawling. Little did I know that Bob had both of them and they made it through, still in their tubes and everything was fine, Thank you Jesus! There was another time that was got beat up and I really thought I was going to end up taking a trip to Uvalde to the hospital. It was BAD. the rest of the day was pretty much without incident.

Friday, July 13, 2012- we got a later start today and it was mostly my fault. I could not sleep last night ( or any other night for the last month) and then I laid down at 8 this morning because everybody was still asleep and then I didn't wake up until about 10:30. We went to the store, bought a 2 person tube for me and Keigan, went to Garner to get some information and then back to the cabin to get the kids. Me, Keigan and Rae decided we did not want to float the same section that we had floated yesterday so we went to Garner and played. The float took longer today because the river had already went down some. We had a great time in Garner and everybody else said the float kinda sucked. Dawson and Caitlynn jumped off of a cliff that was about 25 feet high! Dawson was going to do it 3 times but never made up the 3rd time because he slipped and slid down the cliff. He hurt his leg but he is fine. Just some abrasions. Now, we have had a fire, the kids made S'mores, we tried to make the Mt. Dew glow thing but I guess we did that wrong because it did not work and everybody is in bed asleep....except for me.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Me? An Award?

I was given this award by gossip_girl at I honestly have NO clue what this means, nor how I am really suppose to do whatever it is telling me to do, but it is still cool all the same. I will do my best to follow these directions, and well, if I fail, sorry, but the upside to that would be that probably not many people will know any different, as I am not sure how many people actually read this, but here goes nothing.....

The rules are as follows:
1. Include award logo in a post or on your blog page.
2. Answer (10) questions about yourself 
3. Nominate 10-12 other fabulous bloggers.
4. Link your nominees to the post and comment on their blog, letting them know about the award.
5. Share the love and link the person who nominated you.

1. What would you most like to change about yourself? Part of me wants to say that I would change NOTHING about myself because that is what makes me, ME, but at the same, I can think of so many things that I would change. I think the first thing I would change would be my habits. Smoking, eating unhealthy, and of course, I would love to drop all the weight that I have gained since having children. Ugh...and I thought I was morbidly obese back then. What I wouldn't give to be that size 9 again. 
2. What's your theme song? I do not know that I could narrow it down to just one song. Music a huge part of my daily life, and just about every song fits some aspect of my life, and just about every song is my "favorite."

 3. One part of your life, a memory, action, etc. that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain?  I hate to live in the past therefore I don't really like these kinds of questions, but there are only 2 regrets (because that is basically what the question is asking) that I have they are the fact that the last thing I ever said to my grandfather was to leave me alone and don't talk to me anymore, and then I woke the next morning to find that he passed away in the middle of the night due to a massive heart attack, and the second would be that I never told either one of my parents, but mostly my mom, that I loved them. I did on rare occasions, but never on a daily basis. 
4. What generation do you wish you had been a part of? Hmm. I don't know. Part me sometimes wishes I was alive back in the "Gone With the Wind" days, when all the women wore those beautiful dresses, but I have to say, being born in 1978 and growing up in the 80's and 90's was great too. Great music in those days.
5. What was your favorite childhood toy? Probably my "boom box" back then. I never toted it around on my shoulder (haha) but I did tote that thing around. I was always listening to music and of course we did not have iPods back then. I have a lot of great memories that involve the good ol boom box, and just music in general. 
6. What is your favorite housecleaning chore? I will be the first to admit that I am LAZY, with a double capital L. I spend entirely too much time on this life sucking computer, but I do still have to clean house, at least once a month. Of everything that has to be done, vacuuming is my favorite, and I will also admit that I absolutely love to vacuum. (I just don't do it enough, and I was just kidding about the once a month thing) 
7. Do you Twitter? I honestly probably have 4 or 5 twitter accounts (because I can never remember how to get into the last one that I set up, but NO, I do not tweet. I do Facebook though. lol 
8. Any goals? Umm, yes, of course I have goals. I do not make all of them public information, nor do I put a timeline on them. I think that is just setting your self up for epic failure. 
9. Do you really drink margaritas all the time? Negative. I actually drank my first one not too long ago at the ripe ol age of 34. 
10.  What is the ugliest car you've ever driven and were embarrassed to be seen in? I had an 80 something Honda Prelude. My friend and I called it the Silver Bullet. That car was a piece of shit, and as ugly as a 3 tittied witch. However, it got us all over Gods creation, 87 million times. We did not work for the most part, and our parents did not give us gas money (or cigarette money) but the car ALWAYS had a full tank of gas, and we ALWAYS had those nasty cigarettes. Oh to be 18 and carefree again. lol 

Now, I think this is where I am suppose to award this little doohicky to other bloggers that I love to read, but I am going to do the same as gossip_girl. If you want to see who I follow, I think you can click on "view my complete profile" and see it there. If not, that must have been something that I deleted off of my blog by accident and now I have NO damn clue how to get it back. I told you, I am BLOGTARDED. 

Changing up the way that this is going to be given. Anyone who leaves a comment is being given this Sunshine Award!!!! Don't forget to copy and paste it to your blog!

Friday, July 6, 2012

Cell phones and vacations...

Okay, so as I posted the other night, we got Keigan a cell phone. Mind you, she is 8 years old. Every 8 year old needs a cell phone, right? Anyway, the day after she gets the phone, we are headed to see some family and we stop at the gas station. The hubs and I get out of the car. He pumps gas and I go into the store to pay for it and get me something to drink. Both kids stay in the car. I get done in the store, come out, get in the car and Keigan is hysterical. I try asking her what is wrong, and all I can understand is "I'm sorry, it was an accident" and so I am trying to get her to calm down so I can understand what the hell is going on. Finally, she gets it out "I changed my password to my phone and now it won't work!" Really? You are 8, and all of this because you can not remember the little lock code? That is what I was thinking, but I did not dare say anything. She seems to be a little sensitive if she thinks people are laughing at her or if she is going to get in trouble. Inside I was busting out laughing. Outside, I was a little irritated that she was acting like this over a phone, at 8 years old, and also because she was trying to be sneaky. After looking on Google and trying to figure out how to get in to the phone, I ended up having to call the phone carrier and tell them what was going and they reset the phone, deleting all of her games she had already put on the phone. When the Hubs handed her phone back she quietly says (in her I guess you were right, pouty voice) "I guess I am not ready for a phone!" I did explain to her that she does not need to set a password on her phone. I did tell her that if she wanted, she could set up a pattern code, but that anything that she tried to lock and keep secret, that I could and would find out how to get in it. I told her that until she and her brother are 18 and out on their own, I would have passwords, pattern codes or whatever they had, I would know what they were as well, and that they were not going to try to hide things. She agreed and has decided that she will just leave the phone and passwords alone. Lol.

We have also finally been able to set our vacation. This has been about the most stressful thing! Here's the deal. We have been paying on a time share for the last 2 years or so, which is a whole different blog in itself, but like I said, we have been paying for this thing for at least 2 year now. We have never used it once. $350 dollars a month for at the very least 2 years is $8,400 that we have pretty much just given away, for NOTHING. For vacations that we never take. For something that we have never been able to get reservations because they are always booked. For whatever other reasons, it has been money wasted. Hell, we could have gone a couple of cruises with that money. Paid a car almost off.
Anyway, this $350 dollars use to come directly out of our bank account, but I had to put an end to that when they started taking money out of my account without letting us know about it, or when they were not suppose to be taking it. I called my bank and they put a stop payment on them and they were no longer able to take money out of the account. Well, this being the last of our priorities, when the Hubs work slowed down, this became the last bill that we worried about and so we would either pay it or not. (Usually not) but we would let them know what was going on and they would work with us. Then it got to the point where we were like "fuckit, the deal was that we were only going to pay of the monthly payments and the other person who went in on the deal with us would pay the other half each month, but that never happened and we have been the ones stuck with it, so we decided we would just let them foreclose on the whole thing and be done with it. We have a place to live, 2 new cars, who gives a shit if it goes on our credit? After a couple of months, and the steadily trying to take money out of our account and the bank not letting them, they called us and made us a great deal. HAHA. They waived all of the late fees, maintenance fees, all this shit and basically ate all the missed payments. We said fine, we will give it one more shot, and we tried to make reservations and of course it was the same as always, everything was booked. I called the billing people back and told them just to foreclose on the stupid shit, and that I would not be making a payment, and I let them know exactly why. Low and behold, within 5 minutes they were able to make us some reservations. Not at the resort we really wanted to go to, but we were going on vacation none the less.
I make the payment, and then call the bank to let them know that I did give permission for them to take the payment etc. The bank then tells me that if they lift the stop payment on that company, that I will no longer be able to ever stop payment on them again. Of course I tell the bank not to lift the stop payment. Well, a couple of days later the payment comes out of the bank. I was like "fuck it, we will pay it, and see how it goes, and if all else fails, we will close the bank account and open another one?"
Everybody is all excited, we are going on vacation. Yay. Then we start reading reviews of the actual resort that we will be going to, and there are far too many more bad reviews than good. There appears to be NOTHING to do other than swim in a little lake, or a swimming pool, and we don't need to drive 5+ hours to do that. We have a neighborhood pool and the kids dad has a boat and they go swimming in the river or bay, or wherever they go on the boat. Then...a day or two later, I am online looking at the bank and see where the bank stopped payment and then put the money back into my account. I could not help but laugh my ass off and think "this is a serious sign that we should not be going to this place!"

Now that vacation is like 4 days away, SOMETHING had to be planned. We were not letting the kids be all excited about going somewhere and doing something fun and then bust their bubble and tell them SIKE. Just kiddin, we are not going anywhere.
Let me tell you, this planning a last minute vacation for 2 families has been one hell of an ordeal and I don't, and won't do it again on such short notice. lol.
I will be sure to blog and post pictures.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

What were we thinking?

So the hubs decided he needed a new phone today because his screen has been broken for a while now. The only problem was that he was not eligible for an upgrade until December. So, since Keigan (the 8 year old) was going to get a phone either for her birthday or Christmas, we went ahead and just added two new phones to the plan and they both got brand new phones today.
We shall see how this works out.